Planning

Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… 
It’s about learning to dance in the rain.

-Vivian Greene

On Tuesday, January 5th, our world was forever changed when Derek's oncologist, Dr. K, shared with us the first steps in our pancreatic cancer journey. That meeting turned our entire world upside down, and as we wandered out of the exam room with tear-stained cheeks, I turned to Derek and said, "We better go to Disney World." 

Derek and I last traveled to Disney World five years ago when our first two children were quite small. Due to the young ages of our children, they have no real memories of ever being at Disney World. Our trip was also cut short by the sudden, tragic loss of Derek's Aunt Judy. Ever since that last visit to Disney, Derek has talked about a "do over", but we decided it made sense to wait until our youngest child was old enough to remember her Disney visit.

When you hear the words, "You have cancer," you don't wait for Disney. 

Of all the challenges we have encountered these last several months, I think the inability to plan into the distant future is the most difficult to accept. With cancer, you cannot plan in the same way that you once did. Rather than planning for the days along the horizon; you plan for the days at your doorstep. 

In just a few short weeks, while battling exhausting side-effects from his chemotherapy regimine, Derek managed to plan a full Disney vacation that he kept as a complete surprise from our three children. As soon as we arrived in Orlando, Florida, the stars aligned, providing us with perfect weather, short lines at the theme parks and a completely symptom-free week for Derek. Our Disney vacation was absolutely perfect and truly gave us a week's worth of memories that will last us a lifetime.

Upon our return from Disney, as Derek geared up for his seventh round of chemotherapy, we received the most encouraging news we have heard in months: Derek's CA19-9 is now at 18.9, which is considered within a healthy range! This number, which measures the tumor-associated antigens released into the blood by pancreatic tumor cells, indicates that Derek may have a greater chance of getting to surgery.

This month will tell us a lot about the next steps for Derek in his cancer-crushing journey. Beginning on Tuesday, Derek will (hopefully) head into his eighth round of chemotherapy. Please send positive vibes for a high enough platelet count to keep Derek's currently scheduled chemo infusion. Following chemo, Derek will get rescanned before we head to Sloan Kettering in New York City for a surgical consultation. After our meeting at Sloan Kettering, we will have a restaging meeting back at University of Chicago with Dr. K who will share with us her recommendation on the next phase of treatment and whether or not her team recommends surgery for Derek. 

With so many new pieces of information forthcoming, I will do my best to keep everyone updated. Anyone (family, friends, acquaintances, strangers) is welcome to join our text group by texting @BigDFaust to 81010. We update the text group much more frequently than the blog.

A huge, overdue thank you to our friends and families who have supported us throughout these last few months. We could never get through any of this without you!!! xoxo